Thursday, January 27, 2011
Do you ever feel like all you do is waste time on the computer?
For a while now, it has completely taken over all of my free time.
My "to do" lists are left undone, while I try to fit in my basic "Mom" duties between checking out the computer each day.
It is such a waste of time. . . . .
Plus, the pressure of commenting, reading blogs, reading facebook, living up to expectations I've put on myself.
Then ... I just don't want the pressure anymore. I just want to quit!!
I've put my blog on Private and then back again to Public several times this week. I know I need to blog and keep my personal journal up to date and would hate it if my family couldn't read it.
But then, WHAT is there to blog about when you work and then waste time on the computer day after day?
Boring life -- that is what happens.
I need to snap out of it and "get a life". Quit living my life by checking out what others are doing.
I read an article yesterday about "Farewell to Facebook" here.
The article completely spoke to what I was feeling. I decided to delete all of the people who have "found me" through facebook. People I went to school with 30 years ago and never have kept in touch with. It was good to see them on facebook and catch up on what they are doing - but then the day to day life stuff goes on and on. Stuff I don't relate to because I don't know them - but I get sucked into their "wonderful" life and start feeling like such a failure.
All of a sudden I don't want to blog or share - because I'm not good enough.
I sat and deleted all of the people from my ward and school days. Now my facebook profile only has 16 people from immediate family whom I love and love me. People I won't waste time on - my time on.
I felt relief. I felt like I could start being "me" again.
I know it sounds silly ... but just deleting "facebook acquaintances" ... has been freeing. Now I won't get my feelings hurt by some brash statement someone says.
Today, I came home from work and started on my "to do" list. I may have an actual life again - when I limit the hours spent on the computer.
This will be a great thing. The article was an eye opener and I think it is going to give my life back again. I feel better today .... like a load has been lifted off. It's kinda funny how I feel freer in blogging to people who don't know me and don't really care what I blog about.
aaaaahhhhh It's been uplifting to get back to what I want to do and not impressing anyone. :-D
(I can't even imagine if I played computer games - thank goodness I don't)